Sucks to the Point of a Hickey
Okay, It totally freaking(fucking) sucks that I can't seemly talk to anyone anymore. Going from talking to someone at lest every other day, to 15 minutes with anyone who's not family or my very best friend is not fun at all.
I've been seeing my best friend a lot, but we still don't get to talk. I try and catch my family when their not at work or busy with kids, doesn't happen a lot.
It sucks that can't talk with any of my guy friends for the following reasons: (in no order)
Jason lost his computer phone thingy.
Ryan doesn't like to talk on the phone, he prefers the computer.
Matt is in a different state and can only write.
Matthew Collier is busy with classes and hasn't been fun to talk to in a while now.
And I don't want to jump back into stuff with Hal this fast and just land us up where we were. I need to give him enough time to come to as much scene as he can, being a teenage boy, and let him get back on his feet.
I just want to scream at Hal and Ryan right now YALL SUCK!!!!! YOU SUCK YOU SUCK YOU SUCK!!! Ryan and I talked, but he showed more of himself and told me that he is sexist. Nothan I can do about that. And Hal hasn't said a word since the email.
Love as brothers
As the DC Talk song title says; "Just say the words". Don't be afraid to say the words I Love You. Don't let the worlds perverted, twisted view of the word Love stop you from saying it. For you know the true meaning.
1 Corinthians 13:4-8
"Love suffers long
and is kind;
love does not envy;
love does not parade itself, is not puffed up;
does not behave rudely,
does not seek its own, is not provoked,
thinks no evil;
does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth;
bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.
Love never fails."
God is Love. There is no fear in Love.
You can love without lusting. And no, Love is not sex!! Sex can be defended as: sexual intercourse, which is something that two body's do. You have control over your body, use it!
A Good Man
I will be coming back to this post to add and edit over time, to try and get a better idea of who I want my husband to be, what kind of man I would enjoy and/or some of the things I'd want him to do.
I've always looked for older and taller than me. The taller hasn't been a problem, but the older... Its a little creepy to me to have all of these younger guys looking at me like that.
The classic "He has to make me laugh". If you have to be with someone for the rest of your time on this earth, you had better be able to get a good (or at lest descent) laugh out of the ups and downs that the two of you will go through.
He has to be a believer. It would be nice to have a husband that's on the same (if not higher) level than I am.
When we're courting, I want to be wooed. I really do. Even though by the time that we're courting, we'll both have some idea that their the one, and that we are getting married, but I sill want to be swept off my feet!!
I want to dance with him. Him being a lover of dance would be a good thing. I want to learn a few different dances, but some I have to wait until I get married because of how intimate they get. I know how to swing, but I want to learn the waltz, salsa, tango, disco,
cha cha, mambo, Texas two step, two step,
I want him to sing(and not totally suck at it) to me. For us to sing to, and with each other.
I have to respect him, and what he does. I want to be able to look up to him. Be able to say "That's the kind of man I will follow".
I'm not sure if this is a requirement, but it would be absolutely wonderful if; he saw my body purely as a bonus. Loves all the rest of me, the real me, and doesn't love me for my body, but is happy about it being part of the package.
Things That I Do NOT Want.
Ranting ground
So I needed a place to rant, express anything at all, and not worry about who's going to see it.
If what I say is too much for your taste, you may leave. I am not going to censor for the most part, but I will also not put up with comments that have no content(all cuss).
So this is the warning for everyone. Read if you have to.
